its been a while.....

so,
  its been a while, im sorry about that a lot has been going on since my last post.
i hope your all very well, i'm feeling a lot better in myself :) i've started uploading a lot more videos to YouTube lately so i thought i had better wipe the cobwebs off of here hehe :)

whats been going on lately???

i've had the implant today... that was an unpleasant experience! i don't wish to go through it again :(

i have been feeling rather comfortable using my camera where as at first i hated talking to one but now its not to bad :)

this post is rather boring i do apologize but im not quite sure what to write :(

so im going to log off as im just rambling 

bye guys xxxx

*yawn*  

that's it im finished!!!!!

I have never been so angry in my whole entire life!!! my so called "father in law" told me today that he has been telling every one that my son isn't my partners :@ and also that my "mother in law" is basically stalking me waiting for me to put a foot wrong so she can criticise me and spread utter shit!!!!!

she told my partners dad that we had split up last night and i told him to leave......I DON'T FUCKING THINK SO!!!!!!! all because we had a petty argument as were both tired and on edge as OUR son isn't very well. so what did his cousin do take advantage of me being upset to get gossip and information out of me to then tell my partners mum!!!

were grown adults for god sake just piss off and leave us alone

so as his mother has taken time to find every single website i use she is probably reading this right now well i have a message for you!!!

your on your last warning now, you put one foot wrong now and you wont see your grandson ever again and that's the same for your ex husband tell him if you want i don't give two shits!!!!

you cant see anything i put on facebook now and neither can any of your family your all blocked and don't bother asking Jason to unblock you because your lucky he hasn't done it to you too!!!

JUST BACK OFF!!!!

*angriest I've ever been*

Pissed off!!!

So as you guys read the other dhay we got let down when we were ment to go Xmas shopping well this same person rang me and Jason on Monday telling us we HAD to pay a debt company for them otherwise we would loose our tv and computer!!!

The only money we have is to go and put flowers on my mums grave and he wants us to spend it on him getting him out of debt I'm so so angry I nearly hit him and I'm not a violent person!!!

*over the edge*

Sorry :(

I'm really sorry I've not posted since Thursday but my son ollie has been really poorly so all my love and attention has gone on him!!!

Hopefully everything will be back to normal in the next few days :)

Speak soon

Not in a good mood!!!

So today I was ment to Christmas shopping!!! Instead I ended up sitting at home waiting for my boyfriends stupid dad as he got "held up"

He said to us last night "i'll be at yours for 11:30am" which was good as I had to go and pick a present up at 12 but no he decided to do something for his neighbor first which resulted in us not going Xmas shopping and my present order got cancelled as I was late picking it up!!!

This is a man who goes mental if anyone I'd late for him but if he's late oh well that's just fine and dandy!!!!!

Next time he can get fucked!!!!!!

youtube :)

so today i decided to start making vlogs on youtube aswell as these daily blogs :)_

im quite proud of myself as im quite a shy person so wanting to share my life, thoughts and feelings online is quite nerve wreckingfor me!!!

and what made me even happier was that my fiance has decided to support me in my online world :)

please go check out my channel its beckiehughes94

thanks

*nervous *

One door closes, another door opens

Today my best friend joined me in the world of motherhood I'm so proud of her and her boyfriend :-) but no more that 10 minutes after I found out I see a silly silly girl writing RIP baby bean!!!

This girl had an abortion at 3 weeks pregnant and is now crying over it all like " it's all my fault" and people are sat there saying "no its not don't blame yourself" errm yes blame yourself not to be harsh but you got rid therefore it's your fault!!! Get a grip

Rant over *phew*

*mixed emotions*

hello people from reality :)

so....

I've never blogged before so this is a very new experience for me and im hoping for you, the readers too :)

i feel this is going to be a very bumpy ride but im sure we'll get through it!!!

well im gonna go as im just rambaling haha 

speak soon

* rambler*